This entry started as an attempt to articulate and express a collection of pains and disappointments that I have been through these past years and I can say I can not fully put to words, some of the sharp pains and breathless moments of anguish I have experienced. I have found that the most painful places are those empty corridors of hopes and dreams. The nights where you have to silence the songs your heart sang in those places of hope; Songs written and sang with no intention to stop.
I couldn’t possible sit here and write a religious tale and speak of a mystical healing but honestly speaking healing comes with intention. When you are going through places that really leave you wrecked, the first advice most of our people in the church would advice would be “find your way back to God” “perhaps you need to be in touch more with God”; but the defeat pierces deeper when these hurts, find you in Gods arms and serving with no reservation. I have learnt, that sometimes, even in His* arms a challenge comes. And it is natural for us to drift from Him* in an attempt to gather ourselves, outside of Him, so we come back and serve in our “right state”. This is usually the predicament many face, especially those who have been in the faith for years; Unfortunately this does more damage than good. So like us to want to be God to God, covering our shame and hurts, so as to not disappoint Him.
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”- Matthew 11:28
A majority of us, have been hurt and perhaps some are still hurting. And over the years, the place of hurt becomes so familiar that we sometimes instigate situations, so that they bring us back to our dark corner of hurt and pain. For months, I would bring myself back to the corner, and intentionally bring my heart back to the place of brokenness and defeat until recently.
I am very cautious not to credit people to my healing, because the God I serve is a jealous God. That is why I believe God, was in on it, actually He had been planning it all along. The people around us are the ones who inspire our passions, and become important puzzles to how we perceive the world and even on a smaller scale how we perceive ourselves. God has been gracious to release divine people into my life to help with my healing. Believe me, when you can’t remember the last time you where happy, sometimes it is more comfortable to be sad and depressed; but my people,Gods people have been such a support and I am eternally grateful. I read a post awhile back that said “Be around people who feel like sunshine” and this resonated soo much with me.
The healing won’t be overnight, you going to have to intentionally “come” to your place of healing, and allow God to do what He does best, and that is just be Himself, which is LOVE. And remember, sometimes you won’t get an explanation nor will you get closure but live you must. You might even expect the world and those at your church or even at work to “understand what you going through and be extra sensitive”, Believe me, people rarely attend pity-parties”. So, it is up to you…
Child of a King, if you are hurting I pray that the Lord may come as a rushing wind and heal every place of hurt. Places where forgiveness needs to be happen, forgiveness of yourself or for the next person, I pray for the strength to carry that through. I pray the Good Father may allocate you your “sunshine carriers”, people who will come in and pray for your peace and help you back to yourself. This I pray in Jesus name…
Find Healing; I have through God.
A special shout of love to the one “sunshine carrier” who, despite of their trials has been nothing but gold. Paulo, may God bless your heart and continue to cause His face to shine upon you… You have done more than you know. I bless the Lord for our crossed paths!
PS. This song guys, Listen and Be Blessed